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slightly overwhelmed

I really want to get back to making things, but fatigue and pain are severely limiting what I can do and right now I have a really good and clear goal with my research. But it’s the equivalent of at least a Master’s Thesis, probably more like a Phd at this point.

So obviously that is taking time, but I’m trying to merge my digital files and bookmarks to be able to properly cite what I have.

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fixing and sorting

I’ve found a neat stream of imagery of noble dress of the North Rhine but it is locked away in a dissertation and a limited edition print of a journal. Fortunately I have a solution so *fingers crossed* as it is so very important in adding to the context of Anne of Cleves.

I’ve tried to avoid opinion pieces about Anne, which is a bit difficult, and instead have tried to find what was expected of her in her homeland and how that did or didn’t match expectations. So having as many depictions of dress of nobility of the region really is vital.

But I’ve also finally managed to tidy an OCR of a very important article in terms of written and spoken language- and it has totally validated what I thought was going on. Rising and lowering vowels, diphthongs, hardening of consonants? It’s going to make it easier to read through archives but it unfortunately makes searching more difficult.

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working slowly

I’ve had two queries about my Anne of Cleves research in the last few days so I’ve been trying to update some of my pages that draw together visual information that individually are relatively low quality but brought together suggests they are at the very least attempts to depict dress specific to the region.

If you have visited my research site in the last few days you’ll find some pages are changing a bit. I’m trying to cite inline and post, and that includes any edits made after initial publication.

My PC is currently inoperable. There seems to be a corrupt update but otherwise the drive is good. So I’ll attempt to reassemble it.

Meanwhile I am making use of my new flipbook, I can access files in my back up drives via an enclosure so yes, I am able to access files. It’s just a little different to what I am used to.

I’ve also taken up tidying as a bit of distraction therapy.

I’m also finding myself retreating from kindness and support. It’s a difficult time for many of us who are reduced to a number and are aware of it. So I’m going to take a breath, take a pause, and find a way to express gratitude.

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Actual progress

I have managed to transfer my Anne of Cleves sleeve mock up! It took a bit longer than expected as a certain spotty cat thought that a single layer of paper was a better litter tray than the litter tray. Sadly my copy of Mary Saaler’s book on Anne was caught up in it- it was out because I wanted to reference the sleeves easily.

But the pattern has been replaced, and I am super happy with it. Really happy. It will be going into my pattern book.

This is obviously quite a small achievement but we have had a fair amount of stress the last three weeks which culminated in a nationwide alert for a Tsunami (the surge did arrive but was more of a marine disturbance.) The earthquake that trigger it was off shore at Rangitāhua (Kermadec Ilands, and luckily no one was there at the time) but there have been a rolling series of quakes and aftershocks alone the fault line. I’m far enough away to not feel them but other people who live closer or on it are.

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perception

I am one of those people that really struggles with the smell and taste of coriander. What a lot of people don’t understand is that is is not a choice for many of us, it is mostly down to the receptors in our noses (and mouth I think.) But worse, it means that many detergents and perfumes are also overwhelming to us, over and above what most people experience*.

So when something smells or tastes of soap to me? It is not what most people experience as soapy taste or smell. I have to use something like mint and/or eucalyptus oil to act a bit like mouthwash for my nasal passages (side note it has made me really wonder what smelling salts actually were for!**) But it also means I am so frustrated about missing out on the joy of coriander and what it does to the balance of a dish, so that I have really tried to understand the context.

As someone who has to do a cost/benefit analysis of every moment of every day, I like to make sure I have a good stash of spices and herbs. There are times when fibro makes textures or flavours overwhelming, so I like to have some very bland protein (tofu, egg whites, chicken) that is very fast to cook, that can then also be made more interesting at other times by spices.

For umami I have a few kinds of soy sauce as well as maggi seasoning, for heat I have sirracha, and then spice pastes or powder mixes and then also individual spices and herbs.

But fresh coriander? It will never not fill all my nasal spaces with the sensation of being submerged in dishwashing soap. But I keep trying to understand it so that I can recreate my favourite dishes with something that comes close to what most people experience.

Most people experience the citrus notes, and that was a bit of a revelation! Sometimes citrus peel is also overwhelming in the soapy sensation, but I do still experience the citrus notes enough that it helps to understand the role of fresh coriander.

I think I can use lemon peel (not pith, not juice) with dried coriander to get closer to the experience of most people. I have tried a few times and oh wow, so delicious.

But this also explains why I love the smell of lavender and roses! A lot of people hate them as they smell of perfume. But perfume to me is overwhelmingly of the soapy parts. So fresh lavender and fresh roses are a delight. Perfumes that are supposedly lavender and rose to me are soapy. And that probably means that people who are more immune to the soapy smells associate the experience with the floral notes.

Anyway, I’m currently sipping some Earl Grey tea with some lavender in a tea infuser and wondering what that experience is to most people. This is an attempt at recreating an Imperial Grey tea from a few years ago. I hoarded as many as I thought was reasonable but am now really missing that hug in a mug it offered. I do wonder if my tea fiend friends would like this as well. I know most of us love a specific cinnamon blend, but now I am asking myself if we experience that in the same way?

*There are other social factors, but I have genuinely tried so many ways and still am stuck. This is definitely made worse in a fibro flare, to the point even avocados wind up a truly negative experience.

**There are times I need to use these very volatile scents for sinus pain. It is usually due to inflammation of nasal passages (sinuses are connected via very fine channels, and the ends that start in nasal passages can be clogged with mucous or inflammation) and so it makes me really ask if people in the past used smelling salts for the same reason! We think of them in terms of rich white ladies who can’t handle reality, but what if it’s purely somatic?

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updates

I finally have several patterns from manuals and extant garments in a format and folder to add to my pattern book. All require my own work to turn them into the actual shapes as would be marked out before fitting. I also need to find a way to help people use these patterns, I already call my entire system The Modular Frock but it still doesn’t quite convey just how differently we approach the entire process compared to a busy workshop with many people working on any part at a time.

But it is very exciting as the garments do absolutely match the patterns. And so that means some garments we do have in poor condition could probably be reversed engineered still, and that some garments that are extant could reflect missing patterns.

This will mean I need to be rigorous in citing within my book, and not simply copying either. So far my patterns compliment Alcega and Burguen (a rather more extensive book that is very easy to read) sleeves, simple bodices, skirts all match my own patterns almost exactly. My skirts include extra length for turnings, I use a hand width so that once the hem is turned there is a lot of room at the waist for length adjustments (whoops I forgot my shoes for instance) and to both resize the waist and to shift pleats to wherever is desired.

So right now I need to turn my basic bodice into the all in one bodices of Schuster and Kisszeben books. It will look a bit different as my book starts with the shapes, and then will explain layout for piecing etc. The Schuster one in particular does a kind of piecing that we would find unacceptable today.

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Doing

So having already had a tiny infection in one finger interfering with life, I have a second one on my opposite finger (I think a paper cut) that has done the same thing. Luckily I’m on antibiotics for my cough, and so I just need to let that process happen.

So there has not been a lot of doing but I have got my Anne of Cleves skirt pressed and am tacking the underlining to the shell. Just through the joints in the shell rather than everywhere, my hands just can’t. I want to preserve function for as long as possible, so that means stopping Doing or typing etc.

I’m also trying to get the rest of the pearls on the hat, and that is going to be very tough, but will be worth it. I have enough jewels as well- again pacing and it did take a year to get through bite by bite as it were.

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So excited

Yesterday I was able to have my second pulse of Rituximab- it’s getting really difficult finding a vein that has a nice clear 3-4cm straight- and wrote a lot while I was in hospital. A. Lot. A lot a lot.

All about clothing of Cleves.

I had also sorted my pattern book patterns, with my personal ones, to work out the order of my book, and I’m so much happier with how to go about that.

So today I got the rest of my mini patterns in one folder- all garments I have made, some patterns finalised, some rough as heck- and another folder of all my reasearch notes for costumes- including more rough sketch patterns- and finally my pattern book into another folder.

It’s a lot of work but it makes sense now.

My velveteen for my next pink Cleves gown arrived, as did the block of beeswax (yay! I can clean my bee shaped beeswax and keep it as it’s so pretty) and have already repaired our doorstop- a rhino made from heavy corduroy.

SO EXCITED!!!

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Cleves frocks? CLEVES FROCKS!

I have a Thing for pink! Last week I was able to pick up 7m of a lovely fuchsia pink wool, enough for two frocks.

Now I do indeed have a pink Cleves frock, and I am sure I want to make another (with black guarding, then maybe take the raspberry velveteen of this pale pink, move it to a yellow silk, then use another gold fabric to guard the pale pink.)

But I am not sure what to do with the rest! I could remake one of the other two frocks above, or I could make my favourite Cranach frock ever.

Judith with the head of Holofernses, by Lucas Cranach

I adore everything about this particular version. And it would be lovely to finally make it.

4.0.1

But this is the portrait that inspired my second pink frock and that turn down collar and short sleeves make for a really easy to wear in summer frock!

I could in theory make all of these.

The linen mix fabric I’m using to line it all has mercerised warp threads. So it’s very glossy.

I also happen to have enough to line two pink wool frocks and then enough left over to make a self lined frock.

Most of my linen does not mimic the cvolour or texture in imagery, but my very cheap mix does.

It then really is a case off how many short sleeved pink frocks is enough?

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