Health update

In my last post I mentioned, almost offhand, I make while I can still make.

I’m having this tested somewhat as the fatigue that has dogged me for so long returns after a short few weeks.

I am sort of okay with this. I know what to expect, I know I can pace things out, to make sure I have a little something for each day, but it’s obviously an unavoidable halt and that is a challenge in many ways. Not least of all the feeling and dread of the most likely what ifs.

What ifs are difficult, but when you already have experienced so little support while trying to continue through them is very difficult. I don’t need someone to talk to, I’ll need someone to do things for me. I’ll also have to just sleep. For a few days at a time. I don’t mean nap, I mean sleep for 48 hours or so. Not watching tv, not playing games, not resting. Sleeping.

I’m a bit like my camera. The battery says there is 25% left, which should be enough to get through the day. But my camera turns off at this point, I’m still not sure why- maybe the process of writing files could be interrupted and corrupt the card? Whatever it is, it just stops. I am at that point now. I suspect if I try to stick out the day I’ll do damage but I keep thinking I have enough energy.

I did start to make horns in Sketchup. I am a whizz at some elements and not at others (mainly getting things to work in different planes) but I think I can genuinely get this and sculptris to do what I need 🙂


Tags: 3d modeling, cad, disability, health, rheumatoird